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who? me? 'fraid so...

I was watching something on TV the other day and one character was saying to another that they were so passive aggressive, and though I had a vague conceptual grasp of the term, I've never been really certain what this meant, so this morning I looked it up.

And Oh. My. God. If there was a competition for a spokesperson for Passive Aggressive I think I would be on the short list for sure!

I could not believe was I was reading, it was like a list of the things I told the counsellor I did not like about myself... and worse - that I am like that a lot of the time. We all have our moments, but what I was reading made me feel like I was a text-book example of passive aggressive. Another thing that quite alarmed me is that it's not always just a short-lived or comes-and-goes attitude, it's actually considered a DISORDER...

I have to say that I did not like that at all. On the positive (and therefore less passive aggressive) side - psychodynamic therapy is one type of therapy that can help someone with this personality disorder. When I was in counselling a year or so ago they told me they took a Psychodynamic approach, so I know I was on the right track.

Now that I am saving money by living at home, maybe it is time to start looking into counselling again.

Aquarius Cosmo horoscope for November 2009 says:

"... Your worst money fears are over and you can look forward to 12 months of extra earning and saving power"

YIPPPEEEEEEE

Alex - you are Aquarius too right? If so - this goes for you too! Yay! Go us!

OK, so technically moving back in with your parents and the house you grew up in is not really a 'new home' but it does feel like a new start.

A new chance to do things right, and get my life together.

Having just said that - I was pretty frivolous during my move, I ended up giving away my TV. It was too heavy to move, and I actually hurt my back trying to pick it up and get it down the stairs with my Dad (pulled a muscle I think, painful, but nothing too serious). The prospect of two flights of stairs to get it out of the house, and another flight of stairs at my parents house, and doing it all again in a few months when I move out was too much to bear. We think that the TV is somewhere in the region of 50-60 kilos!! My Dad used to be a TV Engineer, and he said it's the heaviest TV he's ever come across.

So I agreed with the landlady to leave it at the house. Though it was HD ready and all, it was not a Plasma or LCD TV, and therefore was worth almost nothing.

I've since wondered who I would have given or sold the TV to rather than leaving it for the landlady, there are plenty of people I would rather have given it to, but then in order to do that Dad and I would have had to get it out of the house, in which case I would have kept it anyway.

I have a loan that ends in a few months, and there was a good deal for the TV I chose. Dad also got the TV on a pay in 12 months plan, so if I continue to put that money away once my loan ends, I can pay off the TV in full when the time comes and not notice the money being saved in the meantime. So I now have a 40" LCD TV in my room at my parents house. By most people's standards that's pretty damn big anyway, but feels especially big as my room is only about 6'6" x 8' ! The TV in my room is bigger than the one in the living room, and my Mum has been giving very unsubtle hints about swapping them. Her hinting is never subtle at the best of times, so you can imagine her lack of subtlety translates to comments like "Let's swap" and "Why don't you have our TV, and we'll take yours".

My new room is small, but perfectly formed :-) I've brought back the absolute minimum of stuff, but the room is bulging, and I have not unpacked everything yet. There's no floor space, but thanks to Ikea I am planning on making really good use of the wall space. In fact I am off to B&Q after work to pick up some coat hooks and heavy duty picture hooks. Coat hooks are useful for all sorts of things other than coats...